Positive Post #10

February 11, 2018

I missed posting yesterday so today’s post and the date are no longer in synch. Also, I’ll have to catch up tomorrow and post twice so I can stay within the 28 posts in 28 days goal that made.

Yesterday I spent the first part of the day in a very depressed state of mind. In five days it’ll be my son’s 25th Birthday. It’ll be the first one that I will not get to celebrate with him in person. No one will. My son, Michael, died last year. April 22, 2017, 3:06 pm to be exact. When I realized that his birthday was right around the corner it hit me, hard. I found myself grieving as if he had just died. I felt a little better when I let out the tears, sadness, anger, and pain. I hadn’t realized that I was holding in my grief, a lot if not most of, my grief. I felt raw, exposed, and drained. Somehow though I managed to get up from the floor and go out to grocery shop for my mom.

I then spent the next part of my day in an almost mindless state going through the grocery store aisles checking off items on my mom’s list. I don’t remember all of the drive time to mom’s apartment. Sort of operated on auto-pilot until I parked in the lot.

Then I exited my car and loaded the groceries into the little cart and wheeled them up to her apartment.

I went into her place, put the food away, and set out food for dinner. I sat down and ate dinner with my mom and I felt a little bit of the weight lift off of me. I smiled as we talked about her week and what she has plans to do next week. I smiled more as our conversation turned to remembering my son, her grandson, with laughter. There were also tears. It felt good though to share those memories with her. It felt good to share with someone who knew him and loved him.

After dinner was done and the table cleared we talked for a little while longer. Mom always dislikes it when I leave, she says “You fill my apartment with light and life when you are here and I miss you when you are gone.” I sighed and said that I understood that feeling all too well. We hugged and I left.

I felt better having shared memories with her. I now realize I need to share more memories of my son. It helps in a way I didn’t know that it could.

Just like writing this post helped a little bit too.

Thank you for reading and I hope you have a great night.

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Today is the best day to……….

Good Morning!

How are you today?

Me? – I’m good, fine and Great!

Even though my car is in the shop getting major work done (transmission replaced) and I’m basically housebound until it is finished, I’m in  a great mood.

I’m writing this post today off the top of my head and the title is the first thing I thought of to write about.

How would finish the title of this post?

Today is the best day to_______________.

Go ahead and write that down (not for me though, for you) then fill in the blank.

No rules to it, just write it down and finish the statement.

For me:

Today is the the best day to start my planning for next year.

That is a big one for me. I have a lot of projects I want to accomplish and planning them out is going to give me a physical road map to follow in which to do just that. Accomplish.

So I could revise the statement a little too. Today is the best day for me to accomplish my planning.

That feels better.

Have you written it down yet? Is it that you are planning on starting something, finishing something, or relaxing?

All of it is important. All of it is a part of yourself that you are expressing. A need, desire, idea, or thought about what you want right here and now.

Make it realistic for yourself and then accomplish it. Write about it in your journal, blog about it, post it as a status update on your social media sites.

Do this one thing today for you. You deserve it.

At the very least you deserve to try this one thing for yourself. Are you ready? Count to three, take a deep breath, and write it down.

And if you could do one thing more, a small thing really, I’d like it if you could share that one thing with me by leaving a comment for me about it.

I love sharing ideas, thoughts, and such. I believe it keeps the energy building and the momentum moving. This in turn helps us accomplish what we need to (or want to) do.

Have a great day and be Happy with yourself today!

p.s. Have you written it down yet? No pressure just wondering.

Things are changing around here

I have given some thought to the changes I need to make at this blog.

I need to change it completely.

It’s a little bit sad and a whole lot of happy.

I need to shut this blog down, delete it, release it to the past where it belongs.

You see, when I started this blog 5 years ago I was in different frame of mind and it was titled appropriately.

Chasing Moonlight represented the way I was writing back then, but I don’t want to chase things anymore. I want to, need to, finish things and I realized that by always chasing – I never caught what it was I was chasing.

I still write – a lot – at night and I most likely always will as it its part of who I am as a writer. I’ve also changed who I am as a writer in other ways.

So to keep in line with changing I need to change this too, my blog.

I’m still going to have an online presence I like the way it feels to keep in touch with you, the reader of these words. So I’m in the process of starting another blog on this website for sure. I’ll keep this one going for a bit so that those who would like to keep reading my sometimes silly posts, sometimes serious posts and sometimes a bit outside the realm posts, can follow the links to the new blog.

This major change will, I believe, spark a whole new slew of posts and writing.

Thanks for hanging out with me here and I look forward to the new (as yet untitled) blog.

Have a wonderful week. 🙂

Good Morning Monday!

I figure if I greet the day in a positive way,

then positive it shall stay. 🙂

 

For today’s Magnetically charged post I pulled a few words out of the magnetic box-o-words and then wrote what those words inspired in my writerly brain.

The words – dream, fever, little, universe,

The raw poem that emerged is as follows:

I dream of horse, black as night with feet that struck a chord of

thunder in my soul. And the fever it ignited coursed through my

muscles, tissues and tendons until my every thought was of running

over the ground just feel the earth inside of me.

Little was I aware that at the same moment of thunder and fever inside of me,

across the stars there woke a small spark that spun into itself the music I created until,

Another universe was born.